A note from my Uncle Steve

Allison,

So often in life
a doubt creeps in,
as whispered in our ear.

The Enemy accusing us
would have us still with fear.

Should we just stop?
Give up the dream?
Give in to avoid the strife?

Or flip him off and take the hit
and get on with our life.

I've seen both done.
I've done both, too.
I'm not the one to preach.

To say that either is easy,
no I couldn't make that reach.

But as someone who has taken hits
and can look back now and laugh,

I realize that who I am
is really only half
the problems that confront
and the rest is up to me.

I hope you know that who you are
is more than what you see.

I've seen you face adversity,
take chances, fail and then

I've seen you dust yourself off,
get up and try again.

I know that you've been hurt before.
had ones that you trust cheat,

I hear the pain shine through your words
though you try to be discrete.

You quetion things, the status quo,
faith, beauty and even truth.

But you're not satisfied to just question
you go get your answers too.

Never letting the pain that some
selfish ass has carelessly done to you

cause you to close off your heart,
and become one of "the careless" too.

You're smart, and funny, and caring,
demanding, thoughtful, cute.

You deserve the best life has to give.
And, HELL YES! I BELIEVE IN YOU!!!

Hope you're smiling
Uncle Steve

CSA Box and such

My little sister caught my eye with this CSA box she posted on her blog Bearicaa

Oh me oh my

"I'd rather be a could-be if I cannot be an are; because a could-be is a maybe who is reaching for a star. I'd rather be a has-been than a might-have-been, by far; for a might have-been has never been, but a has was once an are." ~Milton Berle

A lot has happend over the past five days. I've had to greatest up....like orgasm good and all the way down to crying just because I woke up. Super tired, need a good spooning.

On a side note...watching Bizarre Foods with Andrew Zimmerman.....he is eating coon and possum with collards and sweet potatoes.....can't nock it till you try it.

"What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies with in us." ~~~Ralph Waldo Emerson

I'm reading a bit of Emerson today. Over the past few months I have not shown myself the respect and care I deserve. I've let my own self worth be battered and bruised by those who don't really matter to me in my heart of hearts. Seeking to open myself up to the world and absord it has left me very vulnerable to it's elements. I have been taken for granted and lied too. Had my heart broken and had the pieces played with. Been led around my false statements all because I had blinders on.

For a while I truely did not care what happened to me. I didn't care about the morning or evening and anytime in between. I didn't care about how I was being treated. I thought that deep down I deserved nothing more then what I was being given.

All I was being given was nothing. I gave nothing in return as I felt that I really had nothing to give. I've never really had anyone ever believe in me. I've never really believed in me.

Intro

Soooo....I was at dinner with Kevin on monday and we were discussing ya kow life. I told him that I could never really forsee turning anything I do creativley into a profit. Nor would I ever want too....isn't that the point of a hobby is to keep in enjoyable?? I'm not made to be a salesperson of any kind...but I dygress.

He suggested that maybe I write a blog.

A blog you say!! Well I say I shall.

I'm not quite sure what it's going to be about. Maybe a lovely little clusterf*ck of random details.

I do know one thing...It will give me somesort of creative outlet that my soul is needing