I'm reading a bit of Emerson today. Over the past few months I have not shown myself the respect and care I deserve. I've let my own self worth be battered and bruised by those who don't really matter to me in my heart of hearts. Seeking to open myself up to the world and absord it has left me very vulnerable to it's elements. I have been taken for granted and lied too. Had my heart broken and had the pieces played with. Been led around my false statements all because I had blinders on.
For a while I truely did not care what happened to me. I didn't care about the morning or evening and anytime in between. I didn't care about how I was being treated. I thought that deep down I deserved nothing more then what I was being given.
All I was being given was nothing. I gave nothing in return as I felt that I really had nothing to give. I've never really had anyone ever believe in me. I've never really believed in me.
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